FREEDOM; The Journey Home – My True Life Story. For many years, I had a love who stood by patiently waiting while I suffered through Humiliation, Angered by the Lot I was cast. I was living on guilt while nothing was honoured, but I was hanging on to dignity since I lived up to my promises. We tend to blind ourselves in Believing that things will change or how had I been so stupid to have believed the lies that were staring me in the face. Every Begging moment led to an Argument and every plea fell on deaf ears. Every single attempt to create the urgency that we needed to talk was shut down. While I crashed time and time again until he could no longer bear to see me getting sick with concern for my sanity.
With my anniversaries coming and going with no celebrations and me always on my own, it became harder and harder for me to accept, that this was my life. I was not willing to have a life of a “Begging Dog” and even harder for this man to understand, why this was my life? He worshipped me for years and had to love me in silence for I was dignified but the very reason he loved me more than life itself. Until finally, he begged me to see him. That he had always been there and expressed his broken heart when he had not been around to stop me when I walked into the nightmare of my life. He even blamed himself that his life was at such a bad place at the time that he did not realise what I was going through and blindly trusted the empty promises of an opportunist. I literally had to stop and stand still to see what had been right in front of me all along. Real Love, Real Emotions we had had in common for very many years and Real Friendship in communication and Trust I could count on. I had forgiven myself and I cannot play that blame game but what I do know, Is, that I have much to be thankful for. I go to sleep knowing, all challenges was won and even if I lost a battle or two, I had won the war. I claim Victory since I got Love and that is the trophy worth showing your scars for.
I run into waiting arms and I can hug because I know I have strong arms that hold on. I breathe and feel his sigh of relieve because we are where we belong. I don’t need to think because I feel and I do not need to expect because I know how he loves me. My life was complete! Romay Books: http://www.romaybooks.com Like: http://www.facebook.com/Romay6 Follow: http://www.twitter.com/Romay6